First week of the semester has already passed and already I'm in high gear! Man, this semester is going to be hell cause of the work load. At least I have an outlet... Advanced Illustration!!! WHOOOOO! Will only have two projects the whole semester, but I'm looking forward to them. I got fried like a mcnugget last semester not having a drawing outlet. Add being in a Portfolio I class with a graphic design teacher that doesn't really care much for illustraion for added measure and it's not wonder I was ready to snap by the last assignments. Yeah, I'm the oddball fanatic drawer of the bunch, the one that's fascinated with technology and obsessed with robots, the one who draws out ideas that enter his mind regualry, the one that's inspired by movies, retro culure, and futureistic visions from yesterdays tomorrow, the one that likes to dream about things no one else takes seriously. My cog, at times I wonder what the hell I'm even doing here.

Danger Will Robinson! My sensors indicate a rant approaching!
That's something that really bugs the hell outta me right now. Mainly looking back at my past education back home and seeing how it's affected me now at my decision making. I f*#king wish my home county took art seriously when I was in school. Junior High it was promised all three years, but was NEVER offered. High was a freakin' joke with their 400 dollar a year budget and we didn't learn much in my opinion. Only got a year of art from High School I think. Alot of classmates came from schools that had good programs that actually showed what careers there are in art and got a good foundation to make a desicion of what they want to do. I didn't learn that what I've been doing all my life falls into the illustration category till about the time I transfered to my current university. My options have been limited due to budget. My campus only offers illustration as a minor, so I'm getting a major in graphic design and minor in illustration. Nothing wrong with that, for I can combine the two, but at times I wonder if graphic design is really for me. The important thing is for me to graduate. I'm already this far into it. Mabey I'm just stressing. I just notice that even here, I still stand out with what I illustrate, am interested in, and influeced by compared to the others.

*bangs head on drawing table*

Eh... Circuits are depressed after this post. Going to listen to some music and burn a pencil for a bit to shake this off.

Yes, Illustration is art. I do plan on working graphic design and persuing illustration. I know that the fact I can illustrate for my own designs makes me much more competative in a market.

I'm just venting built up frustration, some which is left over from last semester. At times in some classes it feels like I'm being loaded down with "keep ya busy 24/7" projects. Guess I'm getting that early gate syndrome the closer graduation comes. I've always tried to do my best work with what time I can muster. I DON'T plane on quiting. I've come to far to just drop out.

Signed print for free? Depends on how famous I get.